I guess it's pretty obvious what my story is.

I'm not ususally one to cry, but hey, what can I say, there's a first time for everything...even crying in public.



It's pretty obvious now.

Ever since Nix became a moderator...and many many days before that, she's been ignoring me.

I'm not even sure if my cousin is still friends with me anymore...she's left me behind you see. before, our conversations would be hour after hour of laughter, green jokes, fic ideas, and the like. Now, it's almost limited to "hi." and "goodbye."

I'm reaching out here, since I can't anywhere else. I'm reaching out to Nix...why must you forget your friends when you get a taste of power...and then threaten to ban them. The one person who has always been grateful for your help, and has also helped you...is the second friend you leave behind. Diandra was the very first.

Is it because I am now "uncool" to you. Have you become some goddess that we mortals can only dream of having as a friend? Must you leave your oldest and most loyal friends behind when you find a new model...someone more in power? Do you even care?

I'm sorry to quote Lilo and Stitch, but I think this is relevant.

Ohanna means family, family means nobody gets left behind...or forgotten.

That can also mean a circle of friends so close it's almost a family...we are cousins, yet you have left me behind. You were my mentor, yet you abandoned me. I trusted you, yet you betrayed me.

I'm still here Nix, I'm still here. And no matter where you run, I will haunt you.

Why must you abandon me...when I try to reach out to you?

first of all, i'm glad u're here YT. i've missed u. i've been to ur forum but i guess i was the only one visiting. second, i didn't know u felt hurt about Nix. hope u two will settle things down soon.

I told you once, and I'll tell you again.

I haven't slept in weeks, I haven't been having a good time lately, and I haven't had such a good month either.


The 'hi' and 'goodbye' parts are because:

A. You lied to me, and all of us in Harusaki.
B. You insulted your own friend Midosioup, who cares if she isn't smart? Having a 126 IQ doesn't mean people having an IQ beloew you can' have any friends. Midosoup is no idiot, I can tell you that.
C. Why the hell did you lie to me in the first place eh? Telling me that mido's parents tried to 'engage' you to her cilantro brother. *cough* Which it never happened in the first place. You used your own ghost character in Harusaki to defend yourself. Why, didn't you even have enough courage to go up to mido and say sorry tp her and the rest of us in the forum? Why did you use a ghost characte just to cover up your own mistake?
D. You made your own frum for the purpose to only upset the rest of us there, which never worked, making it a place where 'The truth prevails' when there was no truth in what you did in the first place.
E. You know I hate people doing that to me, and they get the worst of the worst when I find out the truth.
F. The Diandra part is strictly my problem, and my problem only. After what she did to me. I don't even think she deserves anyone to be her friend. She did it twice this year. First Jazmine, then me.How would you feel if she did that to you and you found out about it through someone else without her confession?

Everything explained yet? I don't like talking to people who lie just to get theuir own way.

Fine, I'll leave you alone. I know you hate me.

I didn't lie to get my own way. I LIED BECAUSE I WAS SCARED. You know fear, you used to lie too, and maybe you still do. AND I STOPPED LYING. I tried to change, and I am doing so.

I can't believe you.

I just want to say that many here are often ignored give attention to the others too well that my speak out reach out uhmm speech...

I just want to say out that both of you has a point and gosh this place isn't so "happy" anymore....

Some things aren't whilst some things are. The happy part, that is.

i miss the old days

if this continues im seriously dying rite now =_=

don't get me started yue~

can we help you to solve your...er,conflict?

erm..why does she have to say sorry to us Nix?what did she do..?

you havn't slept in weeks,faust havn't slept for days,what the heck is happening to people? Insomnia spread all over the world...?

anou..Nix-san. can i give a suggestion? have some sleep. No, LOTS OF sleep. and after that think about what happened once again in clear mind and maybe,hopefully, you'll see it differently,understand it, and you can forgive Phil and your other friends....

it's so not good to see you two fighting

start ur nagging? omg hell no~ ive heard ENOUGH from my mum... n im dying from it... so pls don make my life worse... cos its alredi getting worse n worse!!~ T-T

what is nagging?

I meant Harusaki Forum. -__-


Phileonis: I still can't believe what you did to your own friend. (Midosoup) I know you apologized, but after that, you talked to me on the phone, and I still remember what you said.

You didn't stop lying, you were hiding from her. -_____- You still accused her of some of your problems when you went to her birthday party. I don't see why being scared had something to do with talking behind someone's back when the one who your talking to also knows the siuation well.

I'll shut up now. You better make sure you will stop lying to others as to me.

o..k.. i'll just watch from the side-lines and just throw somethings at ppl..