I walk a narrow line between killing myself and not. The only thing that has kept me from doing it so far is my friends and family. I believe that when I approach old age, I might kill myself so as not to die mourning the loss of former glory. I'm fairly good looking now, and I don't want to see that beauty fade. If I do kill myself, I intend to just jam a knife in my heart. Certainly not a sissy way to die, but not as bad as harakiri. I don't think I could do that.