I only got that P500 and my best friend wants to go movie-watching tomorrow so I guess I'll end up spending it all. This is one of the worst Christmases, dang it.

I only got two presents-- one from my best friend, the other from my best friend's mom. Great, huh? I think we got something from my father side, but we didn't fo there this X-mas coz my father is in some stupid tiff with my cousins.

Aww, Aya, don't cry! *hugs*

Hehe, don't kill me...I had more than 20 presents this year... and to top it off I had...P4700. Don't kill me!

i'll kill you!!!! kill!! kill!!!


aya: if u can't stand hearing stuff bout ur dad,forget it..forget what they said..or at least try to ignore it...don't let it bother u that much..okay?
*hugs* *can't hug coz there's already shiwa n nix hugging aya*

*sob* *sob* thanks guys.... you really are the best....

Whenever I went to my relatives' house (in my mother's side), they always make me cry... because they said that I'm someone who always bottle up my feelings.... and it'll be hard for me.... that's why they always make me cry....

Seriously, i almost stabbed myself.....

I only got a few gifts too... and P800 for the money.... This is the worst Chritmas... reallly.... More problems, more accidents, more deaths... what could be worse than these? End of the world?

Please don't say that...Ragnarok isn't even near...oi. i hope, the Sign of the Times are actually starting to show...

oh yes..Ragnarok IS near..trust me..

aya:you always bottle up ur feelings..??hum..not good..but i guess you're not that 'bottle' here,which is very good..hehe...

*sob* *sob* yes yes...your welcome your welcome...

Eck...If Armagedo is near...I just hope I'll be in the Rapture.


No offense to non-Christians and Catholics but...


JESUS IS MY SAVIOUR AND LORD!!!

lol! I dunno where I'm going if the 'judgement' comes soon...

Again, no offense to Catholics and non- Christians.
Aya: Pray the sinner's prayer, it's the only prayer God will hear from us sinners.

Tell him your a sinner, you've done wrong, you want him to save you from this world. Thank him for listening to your prayer and that he accepted you as his culinary.


Once you've done that, you will never be apart from God again!

Even if you loose it all, he'll always be with you.

You backslide on your faith, he will still accept you, you are his culinary and he will love you for all eternity.

And Aya, you're a blessed kid, you have talents, if you wanna kill yourself, just look, you can such beautiful graphics imaging!

Guess I'm pretty sinful... I lost faith...

I wonder if I'm going to hell?

I wonder why I am so pessimistic???

You pessimist because you see your life as hell since you have been violated.

If you lost faith, ask for forgiveness, but I'm no Catholic so I depend on God, i do not ask forgiveness from priests with no power over man's will and heart.

Have faith in the Lord, he will make you happy.

I'm Catholic but I think I'm part-atheist now. Especially since I experienced a resemblance of hell in a Catholic school...oh, I haven't told you guys about that. That's the closest I've ever gone to killing someone. Really close.

Nix-san sounded so...lol. No offense!

Kill me then, yes I sound funny. I don't care.


I love God and that's all that matters. I'm a protestant, hang me for all I care.


But being Catholic once, yes, it was hell in earth for me.

I've learned that hell is what you make of it. I believe in God my own way but I do things here my own way, too.

Dumb thought of the week: First and foremost, Happy New Year Bloody Rain Peeps!!!! Without you guys, my life would be boring. Anyways, in 2004 I've learned that I should open myself up more to others and not close myself off. It was a year of really learning to let go of that bastard of a boyf and think about my life now. I'm sorta starting a new "relationship" of sorts. But due to circumstances, I can't be his steak officially. I don't wanna break his heart as I will leave the country soon.

Moral of the story: Sometimes being fair really hurts but there's no other choice.....

Shiwa: Same here... I'm becoming an atheist because of all the shits I've been through...

Mistress: You're gonna go abroad? Where?

I don't know but... I don't fit to be a Catholic....