I hate my father and most of my relative in his side. The one I hate most is my perverted uncle who does immoral/undecent things... He's an uncivilized idiot... and I want to kill him...and I mean KILL him and make hin experience PAIN! And they are always accusing me for having a boyfriend which is definitely the opposite...(Well, they don't want me to have any so I still haven't got any....)

My mom for the time being... just making a simple mistake and she goes angry at me!


Just for buying blank CDs with cases?! Is that something to go angry about!? She didn't tell me anything, I just asked for some money to buy Cds. When I come home, she goes all mad that I bought them with cases!?


It doesn't mean we have CD cases here at home doesn't mean their good. Most of the CD cases already have dirt stuck on 'em and I can't get it off!??!?!


ARGH!!!!!!!!

tsk tsk..relax guys...breathe in..breathe out... just to make you calm

yeah,sometimes my mom's like that too..get angry for small mistakes. especially when she's panic or in hurry, she will tell me to do this and that and then angry coz i don't do it well or i don't do it fastly. i mean,if she's in hurry,why does she have to release it to me??and scold me...?so annoying...

We'll just have to get used to it. *sigh*

yes we do...i kinda get used to it,but still....sometimes it's so...tiring..

I hate my whole family, especially my mom n my 2nd eldest brother. I wish i can get the chance to kill them myslef... n make them pay for making me like this! I HATE THEM!!! Ever since I lived with them ( I lived with my aunt b4 that) all I felt was loneliness n sadness!! i didnt felt appreciated at all! i am always to blame for the wrong things i have not done! ESPECIALLY THAT BASTARD BROTHER OF MINE!!!!! A HUGE HYPOCRITE WHO THINKS HE'S IN CHARGE!! GO TO HELL!!!!!!!!

So many miserable families nowadays...


I don't blame you Yue.

Yeah, I don't blame you too... I sometimes feel that way. But know what? For some reason, I can't tell this kind of thing to my close friends....But, I was able to say these things to you people with no sweat at all....

Yeah, me too. I never get to tell these things to my close friends, but it seems so easy here.

maybe that's because :
1. we're getting close to each other
2. we can't see each other so we don't feel...embarassed,,

maybe that's why...me think

and what is hypocrite???

Hypocrite - somebody feigning high principles: somebody who gives a false appearance of having admirable principles, beliefs, or feelings.

Source: Microsoft® Encarta® Reference Library 2003. © 1993-2002 Microsoft Corporation. All rights reserved.

Don't worry, I think that's more right than ever.


About the seeing each other thing, who knows, we might meet and not know it was you ar me or anybody here.

ugh!! i hate them all even my frens! (and i don't include u guys) all of them.... those miserable people!!!!!!!! all of them left me alone! i hate to be alone, n even though they knew, they would still do it, with SMILES ON THEIR FACES AS IF THEY LIKE THE THOUGHT OF SEEING ME SUFFER OF BEING ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grrr.... bcos of this i got into depression! i cant even sleep, bcos i kept thinking how THEY can do this to me! I even thought of suicide, & thinking of getting that knife & slash myself!!!! damn them all to hell!!! & if i die first, i'll be waiting for them in hell!! ..... .......

.....urh... am i kinda talking too much? sorry...

Nah, you weren't.


Your freinds left you alone? That's mean, I mean, if they're really your true friends, they should have stayed with ya than leaving ya.

Please Yue, don't try to kill yourself, you have a life ahead of you. Believe me, I've tried to kill myself a couple of times.

O.O Wherever I go, it seems as if I'd find at least one friend with suicidal tendency...

Yue-san, please calm down.^^ It's really not worth it. *shrug* I dunno. I myself have a pretty angsty background. My friends not had only left me, but they became my worst enemies. It came to the point that I had to switch schools just to stop myself from hurting them (I'm a semi-sadist/masochist). I've wanted to die tons of times as well but I'm still here because....I dunno. Maybe because it's harder to live than to die.

Of parents...I both love and hate them.